second emoing post

Put a bullet through this aching heart
To stop the pain from tearing me apart.
And when you see my heart cease to beat
Remember that you did this to me.

Every day I pass you by
But you will never see my cry
I keep my emotions bottled inside
I let them out when I can hide
I don't like the world to see my pain
It drenches me like an endless rainIts for me to suffer and me alone,
If only I had a heart of stone

My heart can't take this pain much longer
Only you can make me stronger
To be without you is to be a ghost
A faded soul without a host
Every morning I hope and pray
That maybe today might be the day
Perhaps a smile or a quick hello
But it seems that you will never know

Although on the outside I may look and act better, I
still lie awake every night thinking about my life and my mistakes.
I still have the urge to rip open my skin and watch the blood pour out.
I still don't want to live

I hate walking past you and you not saying a word to me.
I hate hearing my phone ring and seeing it's not your number in the caller id.
I hate knowing you're online, but you won't talk to me.
I hate how we act like we never really knew eachother.

I'm sick of being dragged through the day.
I remember a time in my lifewhen I use to wish the day would last forever,now all I want it to do is end.
Each day I hate myself a little more...
I remember when I was my friend...

Being brokenheartedis like having broken ribs.
On the outside it lookslike nothing is wrong,
but every breath hurts